wo sha

it feels like ages i dont write something in this blog
today i just feel there is something that i need to write becoz im not quit good in sharing stories in face-to-face.
"im not that strong, i might fall to the same hole"
"am i to kind? or i just me always trying to impress someone?"
"i might fall to other people, i say it cause im human"

my life may not become that difficult if she say "yes" long ago..
now im completely confuse what to do, im deciding not looking to anyone any more,
now im just lost, lost of justify my decision, lost of all the memories that i always what to remain in my gyri long ago, lost of hope, lost of believing myself..

im just dont know what to do.
long ago, im running away from all the questions, and now it comes back, and i dont have the answers..  

now or never??

should or shouldn't i?? 

past and present

i may getting slow with blogging, busy maybe, haha
i'm not in a good mood lately, to much thinking about past..
maybe i should forget all the past and live in present..
almost every night i keep thinking about what already happen, and sometimes i feel very bad about it
-take a deep breath, forget everything that had happen and reconstruct your eeman back-
-the path to HIM are always difficult but it never mean impossible, right?-

akidah

bahasa: ikatan, simpulan,saling memerlukan

Ibarat orng buta dgn tongkatnya.....kedua2nya saling memerlukan

Istilah : kepercayaan dan keyakinan yg kuat kepada Allah

Ciri2 akidah

1. ma'rifatullah ( mengenali Allah )

- tauhid uluhiyyah ( yakin bahawa Allah sahaja tuhan yg berhak disembah, WAJIB disembah

- tauhid rububiyyah ( yakin bahawa Allah adalah tuhan pencipta alam

- tauhid asma' wa sifat ( yakin dengan sifat2 kesempurnaan Allah

- apa yg dapat disimpulkan disini, ilmu tauhid ini sgt2 penting2..mengajak kita kepada

mengenal pencipta kita

2. ma'rifat Ar risalah ( mengenali kerasulan nabi Muhammad )

- kita percaya rasul2 yg dipilih oleh allah

- nabi adalah pendakwah 24 jam.....kita???

3. ma'rifat Al Ghaibiat ( kenal perkara ghaib )

- dosa, pahala, syurga, neraka

4. ma'rifat al bathi' ( kenal hari kebangkitan )

-sebagai renungan, andai kata kita dimatikan pada malam ni, di mana tempat kita di akhirat

kelak?

Sirah dan akidah

1. nabi Muhammad

- diuji dengan bermacam2, dibaling batu,tahi, diberi tawaran pangkat

2. mus'ab bin umair

- mak dia tahu keislaman musab, lantas xdiberi makanan

3.bilal bin rabah

4. keluarga Yasser

:-(

i'm try to reduce my words because it seem to make more people uneasy.. the atmosphere is totally different now, i could feel i'm the lowest piority towards others.. maybe it is true that i'm becoming selfish..

hardly to mention others that i've try my best not to be that, but nobody lovely to hear that, the spece still empty.. i just could hear the voice of myself..

sometimes, i could feel that my absent is just to entertain them.. my voice, idea, and feeling seem useless to them..
it's true i always said"oke" but deep inside God knows..

past design me to be like this.. unbalance of emotion.. mix up together..
mouth could be hard to speak but writing make it more easier

bersendirian

sering melihat hnya pada kejayaan dan kemegahan.. itulah yg sering menjadi satu titik ukurn pada insan, padahal kita telah lupa, apakh sbnrnya ukurn sebenar pada seseorng insan... betapa butanya mata kita untuk melihat erti pada sebuah ikatan sesama manusia pada hari ini perkataan sahabat adalh sukar bg ku untuk mentafsirkn lg, ak seakan tidak merasai lg erti sebuah persahabtn, prshabatn dahulu masih lg kuimpikn.. tidak mengenal siapa,status, malah rupa.. hati msing2 cuba dijaga rapi.. dikala terhembur prktan mnguris hati segera meminta maaf dan sedar akn kesalahn.. sebuah ikatan sahabt yg hnya dilandaskn pada ilahi.. mungkn diri ini suka berahsia masalh dn tidak pndai beramah adlh stu pnyebab ak disisihkn.. atau ni hnya perasaan..

space that only i got left

yeah, i gonna be a great advanture begin in my life.. but for sure im really gonna miss malaysia so much..

people always said to be that im very lame..loser.. reading someone blog..
i do learn something from others people blog..in reality not everyone listen to what we are saying.. most people prefer to stay close and enjoy with us when we are really in happy state but not when we facing problems..

hardly to find someone who really care and willingly to hear any kind of problems that we have.. i've try to voice out anything to someone.. but they only heard only few couples of minutes, and then change the topic because they might be boring listening to me.. i know not everybody like to be side with me, joking, crying and listen to me.. it is true now i could feel the emptinies in my life eventhough i've been surrounded by many kind of people..

only this space i could pour some stories.. this network i could lend someone hear who willingly to read..

who knows that someday i could never to voice this out again.. this could be my storage of voice that cannot be spilt out because nobody notice and concern about me..

i might be here but not every single words goods to them

randomize!

this is what we call random capture.. haha

=P

sudah sekian lama, br kini ad sekelumit kesempatan untuk menyatakn sesuatu di laman sesawang yg sememngny telah lama ber'sawang', teramat lh lme tidak mng'update' blog ni...

keputusan vs perancangan Ilahi

assalamualaikum..

kadang kala kita merasakan keputusan yg kita buat terlalu terburu-buru dan tidak tepat, senang dikatakan hanya ikut "flow" yg terjadi dalam kehidupan kita. sering juga terjadi yg kita menyesal terhadap sesuatu keputusan yg telah kita lakukn. tetapi pernahkah kita terfikir bahawa perancangan Allah itu lebih baik?  kita manusia hanya merancang tetapi Allah yg menentukn. kadang-kadang kita merasakan satu kerugian terhadap keputusan yg dirancang, tetapi ketetapan Ilahi adalah lebih baik. setiap yg dirancang oleh Allah mempunyai hikmah trsendiri kerana Allah itu maha Adil dan Bijaksana, oleh itu jgn mudah kita cepat putus asa terhadap rahmat Allah s.w.t. malah kita seharusnya terus melembutkn lidah berzikir dan mngucapkan syukur terhadap segala perangcangan Allah s.w.t. sesungguhnya Allahtidak akan membebankan hamba-Nya dengan satu beban yang tidak ddapat ditanggung oleh hamba-Nya.. =)

kehidupan adalah anugerah

assalamualaikum..

agak lama tidak ku lakarkan sesuatu di laman sesawang ni. Alhamdulillah, syukur kehadrat ilahi kerana masih memberikan saya peluang untuk meluahkan sesuatu di dalam blog ini. setelah sekian lama, ak berkesempatan mnyatakn sesuatu di sini. Pada hari ini ak ingin berkongsi mengenai peluang kehidupan.

setiap kehidupan di atas muka bumi ini adalah satu peluang. Peluang yg sukar kita lihat sebagai satu manfaat kurnia ilahi . acap kali kita melihat bagaimana manusia begitu ligat mensia-siakn anugerah yg telah diciptakn oleh  yg maha Esa . tidakkah sesaat pn tersedar bertapa bernilainya harga sebuah kehidupan? atau hanya diibaratkn dengan sebuah video game yg boleh di"reset" semula selepas kalah? itu adalah hakikat, hakikat kepada sebuah kenyatan yg sudah 'terang lagi bersuluh'. hal ini terjadi mngkin kerana ego, kejahilan dan berbngga dengan knyataan dunia semata. kejahilan pada diri telah mnutup pandngn terhadap sebuah kenyataan dan hakikat kehidupan. Kehidupan adalah peluang yg diberi oleh Allah s.w.t. dn kita wajib mempeliharanya. pelihara daripada disia-siakan oleh hasutan nafsu dan syaitan serta keasyikkan kehidupan semntara dunia. Di dunia inilah satu peluang, peluang membuktikan kehidupan ini bermakna kerana Allah.

Dah start skola??

wah!!! sekolah dh brmula?? mcm x caya je, sdh tmat cuti sekolah dn bermulanya zaman prsekolahan... tetapi zaman itu bukan lg zamanku kerana kini ak digelar ex-budak sekolah.. haha.. kini ak dpt kecapi nkmat berehat dirumah , haha tapi jauh di sudut fikiran ku masih bimbng tentng keputusan SPM..huhu.. tapi ap pn kini adalh masanya.. masa utk bebas daripada hmewrk, row-call, baju sekolah.. hahaha

when talking about school, there are several memories that i wont forget forever when i'm in high school..

 kenangan yg xkn ku lupakn..

keindahan bersamamu krj johor + perak 

mengecat tadika(homeroome)

membakar bbq(homeroome)

pilihanraya bwp 2008

smbutan hari kemerdekaan( mc)

mengecat kelas

_ _ _ _     _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ 

anywhere, it such a boring day if we just to do the same activity all day, but now i miss school..

~mood rehat~

urm..eak

Bila berbicara pasal cinta pasti kaitan kuatnya adalah remaja. Adalah menjadi satu lumrah kehidupan manusia untuk mencintai dan dicintai..pernah ditanya diri ini mengenai cinta tapi ak memilih untuk hanya berdiam diri, bukan kerana tiadanya perasaan itu dlm hati tapi ak menganggap ini bukan lagi masanya.. atau mungkin diri ini tidak lagi mahu membuat kesilapan yg sama, kesilapan yang sukar untuk ak maaf kn diri ini lgi..

~tidak mampu meneruskn lg post..

tetiba hati terdetik mewarkahkan sesuatu di laman blog ini.. terkilas perkara silam yg pernah dilakukan sebelum ini. yea, kita adalah manusia, x kn mngkin pernah kita terlepas daripada landasan kesilapan.. pernah terlintas di fikiran, adakah apa yg saya lakukan selama ini diredai oleh Allah.. tekanan sering kali menyadi penyebab utama manusia memilih nafsu dan kejahilan sebagai pengubat segala kekusutan.. memang benar kita manusia xkn lepas melakukan dosa tp kita mampu mengelaknya,. pernah terfikir berapa bnyak dosa yg kita lakukan dalam sesaat? seminit? sejam? sehari? seminggu? sebulan? dan setahun? nauzubillahi min zalik..  marilah kita tingkatkn lagi keimanan kepada Allah S.W.T.. jadikn lh "soleh wa musleh" sebagai motivasi dalam memajukan diri.. =)

It's time 2 LeARn ENGlish..

someone asked me.. how 2 learn English in a best way? do you know how?? it depend how u practice it.
how 2 practice?? In this new era, there are many ways that we can do to increase our knowledge about English.. "English BROKEN???' it's okay, if we want to have a better knowledge about English, we must learn from mistakes.. people do mistakes, so don't be so shy when we use 'English BRoken'..it is a step to learn English.. English is not like math that we can calculate and get the answer... English is not like biology, physics, and chemist that we do some experiment to get the result.. English is all about vocabulary, communication, and speaking.. we cannot simply learn it without practice it.. =)

A chance To be Grab..

living with all questioning make me think quiet a lot isn't it.. as a human we faced many things in our life.. there are a lot of questions wait for us to be answer.. but, did you know, the most important is not the answer actually, the most important things is how we answer the question...

This is life, the most important is how we react.. but not we aspect.. most of us wiling to wait and expect something good to be happen in their life, the goods never comes if we never effort it..

it  just as simple as, if we want it we go for it.. don't always relaying on others because when there is nobody around us, how we can move on, so start now, try giving yourself a chance to prove that you can do something without anyone helps.. that's the way to live..

Try to FOrGive..

Feeling guilty for all things that i've been done to other people.. it's so hard to forgive ourselves to what we have done.. some people asked me why it's hard to forgive other's, and i replied " what it's most hard enough for you, forgive other people or forgive yourself to what you have done..?"  

Not all people can accept what we have done wrong to them, but do people think what we feel when we know we doing something wrong to them? Most people kept blaming even though they knew we had realize our mistake.. they kept talking behind us for our mistakes to other.. just a little from them knowing and guiding us to   a right path.. remember we all are not perfect.. we do mistakes in our life

Stop blaming others.. and start thinking what you have to do to help..

~from 'kelurusanku terpuji'~

The PoWeR of ZiKUrALLAH

Zikrullah is a way of muslims to remember Allah. "zikir" which means remember was combined with the name Allah would bring to a new meaning that is 'remember Allah'. Usuall when people talk about zikrullah they would think about saying Allah's name and praising Him by repeated words such as subhanallah and Allahuakbar. The truth is they're wrong. Zikrullah means anything that could make someone remember of Allah. Although the repeating words are recommended to be practiced every time. So what's the benefit? Would it do much good to anyone? A scientific research about repeating words especially zikrullah shows that it would produce bio electric if it's put to practice. These bio electric would be produce at our brains, and these things would also activate some parts of the brain those are u inactive. What would it do? It will make us become more creative, proactive, smarter and increase our IQ. So, remember to Allah and He will remember you, as He said in the Quran...

~ the words given by my best friend~

urmm..

sometimes people see us happy with our life... but deeply in our heart hidden sadness that people cannot see..

the unexplained feeling warp the heart.. 

~the heart that cannot be spoken~ 

a mistake that had 2 be taken

Do you ever lose something or someone in our life?? How painful it is? People said "something" can be replace...but how can we replace "someone".. mistakes that we done will probably cause we losing "someone".. i do mistake in my past, and i lose "someone" trust in me, i lose "someone" attention towards me, and the most hurt, i lose "someone" feeling towards me... i really don;t know what 2 do.. i cannot describe my feeling right now.. i feel very idoit for my mistake.. i'm so sorry..

> benar-benar berharap masa lalu x prnah berlalu <