wo sha

it feels like ages i dont write something in this blog
today i just feel there is something that i need to write becoz im not quit good in sharing stories in face-to-face.
"im not that strong, i might fall to the same hole"
"am i to kind? or i just me always trying to impress someone?"
"i might fall to other people, i say it cause im human"

my life may not become that difficult if she say "yes" long ago..
now im completely confuse what to do, im deciding not looking to anyone any more,
now im just lost, lost of justify my decision, lost of all the memories that i always what to remain in my gyri long ago, lost of hope, lost of believing myself..

im just dont know what to do.
long ago, im running away from all the questions, and now it comes back, and i dont have the answers..  

now or never??

should or shouldn't i?? 

past and present

i may getting slow with blogging, busy maybe, haha
i'm not in a good mood lately, to much thinking about past..
maybe i should forget all the past and live in present..
almost every night i keep thinking about what already happen, and sometimes i feel very bad about it
-take a deep breath, forget everything that had happen and reconstruct your eeman back-
-the path to HIM are always difficult but it never mean impossible, right?-